LIFE IS FOR LIVING...

... IF YOU'RE NOT HAVING FUN YOU'RE NOT DOING IT RIGHT

Sunday, January 30, 2005

Nothing!!!

Guess what!? Found out last night that my ex got married! And I don't feel anything! I don't care! I thought there'd be some twinge of something but nothing! Oh, not true maybe I feel a little sorry for him, the divorce was finalised in July - as if one failed marriage isn't enough, spose he has his own lessons to learn.

I've had some of the most random nights that have been fantastic & have involved me not getting to sleep before 5am for the last 2 nights... Anyway gotta go. R looking at more flats today. Wish me luck! x

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

AGAIN!!!

What the hell is with this guy?!! My ex has looked ay my birthday photos, yet again, that makes it the 4th or 5th time... Psycho!

Not much to report on... Still no home, still no job. Did have a awesome day at the beach today are however a little sun burnt...

Friday, January 21, 2005

In 7 days this page will be 1 year old.

That's kinda freaky. To think I've kept stock of my life for the last year on a regular basis. I wonder how much I've held back & how much I haven't... Once I'm a bit more settled I'll compile all my posts form both pages & have a good old read. No doubt picking up all my spelling & grammar mistakes as I do :)

I've just come back form having a really good break at the beach. I can even dare to say that I'm even slightly tanned! How exciting!!!

I got a call back form the apartment I really want to get last night. They want to have a second meeting, I'm short listed along with 1 other girl. I'm hoping she pulls out so the place is mine :) Cause I only got back form the beach not long ago & they're busy Friday it means I'll have to see them Saturday. I arranged to meet them at 1pm then realised that I have to meet my nephew at the airport at that time & stay with him a few hours till his next plane leaves... Called them back earlier tonight to rearrange the time etc so they'll give me a buzz back. Fingers crossed.

I don't have a lot to say right now... I've been wondering if I'll actually keep this page going this year...

Monday, January 17, 2005

Life is Good :)

This has to be a quick one so here goes:

- Went looking at shear apartments on Saturday. No where near as scary as I thought. There's one that I really want but they'll let me know at the end of the week... It'll happen if it's supposed to. Fingers crossed though.

- The weather has been great (apart form today) & now I'm appreciating it. Where as before I was complaining it was to hot. Some people are never happy! hehehe

- I spent most of yesterday with Little, after taking my mum out to the airport. The afternoon at the beach & evening in the city, it was such a great day.

- Today Eve & I are heading up to the beach for a few days. Can't wait to work on that tan. I'm not quite fluorescent white anymore but just about... Funny that now I love lying on the beach, before it used to drive me crazy :)

- Oh & I just re read the 5 "Important things I've learnt" on the right hand side of this page. Things are so easy to forget & loose sight of. Note to self: Make effort not to forget & get caught up in life.

That's it for now. Just realised I don't have to do that whole where I am thing anymore... I've been in the same place for just over a week now - HOME! :o)

xoxox

Saturday, January 15, 2005

Just don’t know what to do with myself.

Well it's not that bad but today's the first day that I've woken up & gone, hmmm, ok?! I haven't even been home quite a week & the biggest thing that's getting me is the heat, that, & I'm not used to been around people that I know so much which is interesting. I know I should be looking for somewhere to live & for a job but I'm kinda putting it off & I'm not sure why. I’ve decided tomorrow that I’ll try to look at a few places & hence I’ll be back to reality which is a bit exciting but that little bit scary too. The other day Mum was like “you should call up & find out if you can go & see some of the places to rent, better to do it sooner rather than later”. I’ve given myself a week just to get used to been back. That & I kinda think I’ve been putting it off cause I’m not quite sure how to explain my money situation, which is ok, but not quite normal & I will have to get part time work if I don’t want to deplete my account completely though. I can see it now, Them: “so what do you do?” Me: “Um, yeah, um, I’m a bum & have just traveled the world but I do have money, Honest!” Wonder if I can just do the whole ‘I’m going to be a student’ thing… This is strange, I haven’t shared a house in about 8 or 9 years. Cross your fingers for me.

It was kinda funny, yesterday my mum goes to me “you realize you won’t be able to have the same life style you were used to?” Me: “Really?!” hehehe :o) In theory I know this but this morning I looked at my vacuum (of all things) & it was like, hmmm Dysone... that’s not really a students vacuum is it? Then I was thinking of my furniture… doesn’t quite fit either but I love it & spose I’m really lucky I got it before I approach the no money part of my life. Kinda backwards but it works :o)

Um, what else. I have brown hair – not blonde – how strange is that! Well technically it’s ash blonde but it’s interesting seeing people who know me, again & noting their observations & also realising that before they had probably never seen my natural hair colour because I was a hair dresser junkie.

I’m a bit disappointed that I’m a few kilos heavier than when I left. It’s no big deal but you know when you do that whole going away thing & want to come back looking kinda good? Hmmm, well, that’s me anyway – some things never change. I may have given up the heels and gained a passion for baggy jeans & flip-flops but it still would have been nice to have come back looking great :o) I console myself with the thought that I have just been in winter so all is good.

The week thus far. I was surprised at how tired I’ve been. I think I’m over the worst of the jet lag now, but earlier in the week it wasn’t pretty & I was tired & grumpy. I finally feel like I can start doing things again. Yesterday morning I woke up & was like “lets go for a walk”, it was good to get some exercise.

On Sunday I caught up with Eve which was fantastic. We had a BBQ at her place & it was nice to catch up with Adam too. After the BBQ a group of us that went to the moonlight cinema about this time last year went again – Ferris beuller’s day off. Must admit the whole jetlag thing… I only slept about through 10 min of the movie & wasn’t amazingly sociable. It was great to go though. I crashed at Eve’s then Monday morning we went for brunch! YAY! I’ve so missed Brunch! Nice relaxed chatting that doesn’t include “so where have you traveled” plus lets not forget the decent food :o)

Monday afternoon I went to the Leisure Centre with mum & soaked in the spa for close to a hour I think – even though it was stinking hot out side it was lovely just to soak. I really miss my old apartment, the spa there was amazing!

I’ve kinda lost Tuesday, I think I read a book, yep I did. Wednesday I went for a wonder around Westfields (go the airconditioning in shopping centres!) & it scares me, I didn’t see any clothes that I wanted to buy. Nothing jumped out & grabbed me. I met up with Char which was great.

Yesterday was rather busy. A big walk to the supermarket with me wanting to wonder down every isle. I love the way the supermarkets are set out here, I really couldn’t get used to the supermarkets else where – they just weren’t logical I tell ya :o) Then the heat was upon us. We retreated to Rodes shopping centre (Oh how I love Aircondioning!). I think it got close to 40oC yesterday. We wonder around Ikea & to my surprise – I left with out purchasing a thing. I worry myself a little ;o)

Last night I caught up with the ex inlaws. Honestly I wasn’t sure how it would go down but it was great. It didn’t stir up any emotion. It looked like they’d taken down the photos of my ex & his girl, I’m still not sure what to think about that – man, I wanted to be nosy & see them, hehehe, I’m bad. What was really funny though is that we were going to go to the club for dinner & as you do I was wearing flipflpos, in my defence they were pretty ones & had sparkles on the thong part, but no, I was turned away – classic. Turned out for the better cause we just got Red Rooster & ate at their place which reminded me of old times, it a good way.

Today, don’t know. Mum’s decided to go to NZ on Sunday as my Nana isn’t to well so I think there is a bit of rushing round to be done. Tonight I’m catching up with Claudia, I can’t wait. I feel like it was kinda rushed at the airport so it’ll be good to spend the evening with her & Little.

I think its fantastic that some things never change & I’m lucky to have very close friends that haven’t forgotten about me while I’ve been gone. I was blown away that Claudia, Lyndon & Little came to the airport. It still makes me smile when I think back to walking out of the arrival gates & I saw them, it was mad! :o)

Hmm, wonder if anyone’s still reading. I’ve just realised that this is like 2 pages long, it has been a while since I’ve posted.

Only other thing to report is that I got a txt form Surfers boy. Oh that & I think I have a pen pal :o) I met this guy in Wales who works with a friend of mine. A group of us had coffee for 10 or 15 minutes then we let them get back to work. He asked my friend for my email address & we’ve been in email contact since. Scary thing is we write novels to each other. It’s interesting.

I sent out a email letting quite a few people know I was home. I’ve heard back form quite a few but no one that I used to work with. Not sure if I really care but I thought that maybe I would have…

Oh well, should go have a shower & start the day. It's only 9.30am & it's starting to get hot & sticky already.

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

Things I forgot about:

Cockroches & the heat...

That is all :)

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

I've been home 3.5 days...

It’s a little strange but I'm glad to be home. For the first time I'm experiencing jetlag. It kinda sucks but I'm sure in a few days I'll be right as rain. I'm tired & grumpy at the moment...

I need to look for somewhere to live, things are a bit more expensive than I remember. I spose I just need to get used to everything again. Yesterday I caught the train back form the city to mums place & for a single it was $4.40au. Spose it's not to bad just a dollar or so more than I remember.

The weather here is great & for the most part my shoulder’s stopped aching which is fantastic. Think it didn't like the cold.

Sydney - Australia, Tuesday 11th January 2005, 11.15am

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

Back in London.

There's so much to post on & I've even written quite a few posts on my lap top but I found out form one of the other guys at the hostel that he hooked up his lap top here (internet cafe) & now he has a virus, so I reckon it can wait 3 or 4 more days till I get home till I post properly...

3 or 4 more days till I get home... I'm so excited it's not funny, I'm also a bit guarded (for want of a better word) about it all. I don't know what to expect really & I don't know what people are going to expect of me... I can see it now, everyone will be like "so how was it?" Me - "ummm, good...?" Or maybe no one will ask & I'll get shitty cause no one will care that I've been gone for almost 10months...

For that matter how's it going to work with seeing the ex in laws... Did I mention I called them Christmas day. It was a bit weird cause I was freaking out the ex would answer. It would have been ok, I just hope I didn't make their Christmas weird...

I saw a photo of my mum the other day on email & it dawned on me that I haven't see a photo of her since I've been away (except one that was taken over a year ago). It spun me out a bit. She looked the same but different.

... I'm going to be home in 4 days...

I was quite surprised that when we were in Europe everyone was like "this is so different form home". Honestly, I thought it was pretty much the same just the buildings were a little older... 'They', who ever they are, talk about reverse culture shock. I'm freaking out cause I don't know what to expect, form people or form the place & I don't know where I fit anymore, if anywhere...

Well, not sure if I'll get a chance to post again before I fly out... I'm sitting here & are feeling like this is the end of something. I feel the same as I did when I walked through the departure gates at Sydney airport last year, when I was walking into the unknown. Except this time I know I can handle it. I still remember trying to hold it together as I walked through customs, as I waited in line I sent a txt to Eve. Her response to that txt has traveled the world with me. "And you're completely free for the first time in years. Enjoy it because you deserve it". Thanks for everything hun!

Earls Court, London, England - 4th January 2005, 1pm

Sunday, January 02, 2005

HAPPY BLOODY NEW YEARS!!!!

Man, I know it's new years day but man, it's a NEW YEAR & pretty much the start of a new life for me... In 8 days I'll be home & as I've mentioned a few times I'm freaking but its all good.

I got way to drunk last night but had a blast after throwing up a few times & drinking a lot of water... Mel & I (who are joined at the hip) met a couple of German boys that we spent most of the night with but it turns out they both have girlfriends so nothing happened there, it was great though cause it meant no one sleazed on us so we just had lots of fun!!!!!!!!

There is so much to write but not enough time as per usual. Tonight we're going to a live sex show - how can you not in Amsterdam? Well, I'm still very hung over & we need to meet the group in just over 30min & I have no idea where we're supposed to go...

Can't wait to see everyone!!!

Love to you all!!!!

Amsterdam, Netherlands, 1st January 2005, 5.15pm