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I don't understand it, I had a relatively early night, I was in bed by 9.45, yet I'm tired this morning... It just doesn't make sense!
My, hmm what do I call him, ex brother-in-law (?) & his girlfriend came over last night & we went to the pub for a few drinks & dinner. It was actually nice to catch up with them :o) It was funny, they slagged off my ex, heheheh God I love it! They didn't like 'slag him off, slag him off' but just a little. We like them.
I'm a little pissed off. I'd planned on going in to get my tat done this afternoon, with Eve there as moral support. The plan was to have a half hour lunch break then finish half an hour early & go into the city to get it done. Well, the stupid company I work for has decided to have the staff monthly meeting this afternoon & it's compulsory that everyone attends... now I could probably get out of it, "Umm sorry, can't make it, I have a vaccination appointment" but I don't think I could get Eve out of it as well. So I have 2 choices a) I can go get it done by myself or b) not get it done for another week or so, that is if I get the chance at all... decisions, decisions... It's really funny, for the majority of my life I've thought that I would never, ever gat a tat.
Reasons I want to get it, I did touch on them briefly yesterday but anywho
- I almost feel like I'm closing the door on a chapter of my life. I send the divorce papers off today & want to mark / celebrate the occasion.
- I want to remember what happiness is. With out the bad you don't appreciate the good quite so much. Every time I look at it I want to realise how far I've come in the last year, what it's meant to me & that I do actually like myself & that I don't 'NEED' anyone else in my life to be happy. It's a nice bonus but not a necessity.
- I don't ever want to lose myself again. Now that sounds pretty stupid & new agey but once you've been there & done that - lost your spark, when you get it back you feel like a whole new person.
- For me it will symbolise that things really do happen for a reason & it'll be a constant reminder that I need to live day by day & not have all these expectations or my life planned out for the next 20 years.
Next topic. Ummm, I have a confession to make. I txt Mr 30 last night... :o) He txt me back first thing this morning asking if I wanted to catch up one last time. 'One last time', no I don't want to catch up one last time, I want to catch up many, many, many times... I haven't responded yet...
I'm showing my apartment (well it's not 'mine' but you know what I mean) this afternoon :( The real estate agent called me up yesterday & said he had some people that were interested in seeing it. I feel like going, no, no one else can look at it. I want it to remain untouched just in case I come back & want to live in it again! I LOVE my apartment. I'm going to miss it so much. It's a bit sad, I hope the people are nice. How much of a sop am I, man, it's only a apartment!
My, hmm what do I call him, ex brother-in-law (?) & his girlfriend came over last night & we went to the pub for a few drinks & dinner. It was actually nice to catch up with them :o) It was funny, they slagged off my ex, heheheh God I love it! They didn't like 'slag him off, slag him off' but just a little. We like them.
I'm a little pissed off. I'd planned on going in to get my tat done this afternoon, with Eve there as moral support. The plan was to have a half hour lunch break then finish half an hour early & go into the city to get it done. Well, the stupid company I work for has decided to have the staff monthly meeting this afternoon & it's compulsory that everyone attends... now I could probably get out of it, "Umm sorry, can't make it, I have a vaccination appointment" but I don't think I could get Eve out of it as well. So I have 2 choices a) I can go get it done by myself or b) not get it done for another week or so, that is if I get the chance at all... decisions, decisions... It's really funny, for the majority of my life I've thought that I would never, ever gat a tat.
Reasons I want to get it, I did touch on them briefly yesterday but anywho
- I almost feel like I'm closing the door on a chapter of my life. I send the divorce papers off today & want to mark / celebrate the occasion.
- I want to remember what happiness is. With out the bad you don't appreciate the good quite so much. Every time I look at it I want to realise how far I've come in the last year, what it's meant to me & that I do actually like myself & that I don't 'NEED' anyone else in my life to be happy. It's a nice bonus but not a necessity.
- I don't ever want to lose myself again. Now that sounds pretty stupid & new agey but once you've been there & done that - lost your spark, when you get it back you feel like a whole new person.
- For me it will symbolise that things really do happen for a reason & it'll be a constant reminder that I need to live day by day & not have all these expectations or my life planned out for the next 20 years.
Next topic. Ummm, I have a confession to make. I txt Mr 30 last night... :o) He txt me back first thing this morning asking if I wanted to catch up one last time. 'One last time', no I don't want to catch up one last time, I want to catch up many, many, many times... I haven't responded yet...
I'm showing my apartment (well it's not 'mine' but you know what I mean) this afternoon :( The real estate agent called me up yesterday & said he had some people that were interested in seeing it. I feel like going, no, no one else can look at it. I want it to remain untouched just in case I come back & want to live in it again! I LOVE my apartment. I'm going to miss it so much. It's a bit sad, I hope the people are nice. How much of a sop am I, man, it's only a apartment!
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