Could it get any more complicated!
Ok... Got a call form the boy last night. He wants to take me away for the weekend! Talk about freaking me out!!!! I said I don't know... but I'm pretty sure the answer is no.
Oh my god, a weekend away is like a huge thing, isn't it? Or am I just been a drama queen? Plus it's valentine's day on Saturday...
He was going to come over last night after he'd been out so called me back later on & we had a bit of a conversation & I'm like a weekend away's a huge thing, big commitment, you're freaking me out, it's not fair to you, I'm worried cause I don't want either of us to get attached etc etc. He's like "I just want to get away form everything & relax, I relax when I'm with you & I can just be myself". Oh my god!!!! He's like "I'm not getting attached"... hmmm, u think?! In the conversation we had earlier he's like "it's like you're a oasis for me (his words) where I can just be myself, away form work & life". Major freak out!!!! "I just want to take you away & treat you like your ex never did".
I feel so bad, we had the whole conversation last week & I thought we'd clarified things... He really is a sweetheart & a nice guy but I don't need the complication. I can look after myself & I'm doing ok, I'm not getting attached but I can't control his feeling & I don't want to hurt anyone. It sucks been hurt! I think it might be time to end it... He's coming over tonight...
For god's sake he wants to fill a bed full of wild flowers & spend $1000's of dollars on me & I'm freaking out... it's to much. Man. I should be loving it, but I can't use someone like that, it's not fair on him...
Oh my god, a weekend away is like a huge thing, isn't it? Or am I just been a drama queen? Plus it's valentine's day on Saturday...
He was going to come over last night after he'd been out so called me back later on & we had a bit of a conversation & I'm like a weekend away's a huge thing, big commitment, you're freaking me out, it's not fair to you, I'm worried cause I don't want either of us to get attached etc etc. He's like "I just want to get away form everything & relax, I relax when I'm with you & I can just be myself". Oh my god!!!! He's like "I'm not getting attached"... hmmm, u think?! In the conversation we had earlier he's like "it's like you're a oasis for me (his words) where I can just be myself, away form work & life". Major freak out!!!! "I just want to take you away & treat you like your ex never did".
I feel so bad, we had the whole conversation last week & I thought we'd clarified things... He really is a sweetheart & a nice guy but I don't need the complication. I can look after myself & I'm doing ok, I'm not getting attached but I can't control his feeling & I don't want to hurt anyone. It sucks been hurt! I think it might be time to end it... He's coming over tonight...
For god's sake he wants to fill a bed full of wild flowers & spend $1000's of dollars on me & I'm freaking out... it's to much. Man. I should be loving it, but I can't use someone like that, it's not fair on him...
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