Self doubt...
I have this huge cloud of self doubt creeping over everything I'm doing at the moment & it's really starting to piss me off. The whole thing is though, I really don't know if I've made the right decisions... I spose what ever happens, happens so I just need to go with it...
I've just been advised that it's 28oC in our office at the moment, I spose that's better than been outside right now - perfect weather for the beach. No wonder I'm finding it so hard to concentrate. I thought it was just cause I've got so much going on in my head... It's probably a bit of both.
For the first time in ages my apartment looks like a bomb's hit it. I'm not really motivated about anything at the moment and cleaning is the last thing on my mind.
Most of my trip's sorted out now. Finally. Spanish school in Cucso, Peru has been booked. I hope I picked the right school... for the right length of time...
I need to start writing lists of everything that I need to do to sort out getting rid of my apartment & wrap up my life as I know it... Scary!
Haven't contacted the boy. Not sure if I'm just using the strange txt conversation we had on Monday as a excuse for not getting in contact with him... If I'd had the same conversation with anyone else I would have thought it was funny. I think that maybe I just really can't be bothered with all the hassle & this is a easy way for me to justify it... Not very nice, huh. Even though we had the "this is just a casual thing" conversation last week I still have issues there, for god's sake he's given me a nick name... Not 100% happy about that...
I've just been advised that it's 28oC in our office at the moment, I spose that's better than been outside right now - perfect weather for the beach. No wonder I'm finding it so hard to concentrate. I thought it was just cause I've got so much going on in my head... It's probably a bit of both.
For the first time in ages my apartment looks like a bomb's hit it. I'm not really motivated about anything at the moment and cleaning is the last thing on my mind.
Most of my trip's sorted out now. Finally. Spanish school in Cucso, Peru has been booked. I hope I picked the right school... for the right length of time...
I need to start writing lists of everything that I need to do to sort out getting rid of my apartment & wrap up my life as I know it... Scary!
Haven't contacted the boy. Not sure if I'm just using the strange txt conversation we had on Monday as a excuse for not getting in contact with him... If I'd had the same conversation with anyone else I would have thought it was funny. I think that maybe I just really can't be bothered with all the hassle & this is a easy way for me to justify it... Not very nice, huh. Even though we had the "this is just a casual thing" conversation last week I still have issues there, for god's sake he's given me a nick name... Not 100% happy about that...
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