The saga continues...

I ended up txting the boy back saying that "I hope everything works out ok... Sorry I'm not much help... I'm off 2 bed now." He messaged back saying "That's cool, I'll call u 2morrow... ;)"

Ok, all good... well kinda... It's all to much for me, I don't want a boyfriend! I've got enough other crap spinning around in my head to have to deal with someone else's problems as well. That sounds pretty heartless but god dam it I spent 6 years of putting someone else's problems first & I'll be dammed if I'll do it again.

I woke up this morning & had a message on my phone... "I need 2 feel I'm alive..." see, that's just to much!!!! It's not up to me for fucks sake to make someone feel alive & honestly that shit freaks me out...

When / if he calls tonight I'm going to tell him it's all to much for me & I've got so much other stuff happening at the moment that I need to pull back... Honestly I don't know what to say & have thought about doing the whole txt thing but that's just the cowards way out....

I really don't need this complication! We had the talk that it was just a casual thing for goodness sake! How do you do the break up talk if it's only a casual thing...???
Maybe I'm just over reacting to it all....