Feeling lonely...

Don't know why. I went to the movies tonight with S, TBW, & 17. 17 was in one strange mood & barley said one word to me. Then he went off & S, TBW & 2 of their friends & I went to dinner at a Thai restaurant which was nice. Funny isn't it that you can spend a whole evening with people yet still feel alone. This is something that will never cease to amaze me. I'd thought that we'd probably go to a pub for a drink after the movie but it was just dinner then home...

I don't want to feel down & I spose I don't really, just missing that connection with people... I know I've got friends out there so there really is no need for me to feel alone but I do, right now, at this very moment. I know it'll pass, it's probably cause I have had a few drinks...

So. What's on my mind? Apart form been in desperate need of a cute boy to do rude things to! I only gotten to use my tongue stud out on Joel... Actually, due to lack of sex, could that be why my boobs are getting bigger, hmmm? Sorry, got side tracked, what's on my mind... Deciding weather or not to be back in Sydney for the beginning of Feb in order to do a massage therapy course that ultimately isn't going to help me with the idea of starting up a hostel but it's something that I'm interested in & that I 'think' I really want to do. Just don't know. What happens if I start it then don't finish it & aren't any good at it and fail...?

Oh & I figured out how to post photos on to this page :) So there's one of me but it looks like I've got something on my lip... Not the greatest photo but such is life :o) - EDIT have added a few more pics now I've figured out how to use it.

EDIT: forgot to mention that I didn't get very far today. Was hoping to go out & do some sight seeing but the buses run quite far apart on a Sunday so I ended up going to the museum, which was quite good & shopping :)

Same old, same old... England, Sunday 14th November 11.56pm