Back in London.
There's so much to post on & I've even written quite a few posts on my lap top but I found out form one of the other guys at the hostel that he hooked up his lap top here (internet cafe) & now he has a virus, so I reckon it can wait 3 or 4 more days till I get home till I post properly...
3 or 4 more days till I get home... I'm so excited it's not funny, I'm also a bit guarded (for want of a better word) about it all. I don't know what to expect really & I don't know what people are going to expect of me... I can see it now, everyone will be like "so how was it?" Me - "ummm, good...?" Or maybe no one will ask & I'll get shitty cause no one will care that I've been gone for almost 10months...
For that matter how's it going to work with seeing the ex in laws... Did I mention I called them Christmas day. It was a bit weird cause I was freaking out the ex would answer. It would have been ok, I just hope I didn't make their Christmas weird...
I saw a photo of my mum the other day on email & it dawned on me that I haven't see a photo of her since I've been away (except one that was taken over a year ago). It spun me out a bit. She looked the same but different.
... I'm going to be home in 4 days...
I was quite surprised that when we were in Europe everyone was like "this is so different form home". Honestly, I thought it was pretty much the same just the buildings were a little older... 'They', who ever they are, talk about reverse culture shock. I'm freaking out cause I don't know what to expect, form people or form the place & I don't know where I fit anymore, if anywhere...
Well, not sure if I'll get a chance to post again before I fly out... I'm sitting here & are feeling like this is the end of something. I feel the same as I did when I walked through the departure gates at Sydney airport last year, when I was walking into the unknown. Except this time I know I can handle it. I still remember trying to hold it together as I walked through customs, as I waited in line I sent a txt to Eve. Her response to that txt has traveled the world with me. "And you're completely free for the first time in years. Enjoy it because you deserve it". Thanks for everything hun!
Earls Court, London, England - 4th January 2005, 1pm
3 or 4 more days till I get home... I'm so excited it's not funny, I'm also a bit guarded (for want of a better word) about it all. I don't know what to expect really & I don't know what people are going to expect of me... I can see it now, everyone will be like "so how was it?" Me - "ummm, good...?" Or maybe no one will ask & I'll get shitty cause no one will care that I've been gone for almost 10months...
For that matter how's it going to work with seeing the ex in laws... Did I mention I called them Christmas day. It was a bit weird cause I was freaking out the ex would answer. It would have been ok, I just hope I didn't make their Christmas weird...
I saw a photo of my mum the other day on email & it dawned on me that I haven't see a photo of her since I've been away (except one that was taken over a year ago). It spun me out a bit. She looked the same but different.
... I'm going to be home in 4 days...
I was quite surprised that when we were in Europe everyone was like "this is so different form home". Honestly, I thought it was pretty much the same just the buildings were a little older... 'They', who ever they are, talk about reverse culture shock. I'm freaking out cause I don't know what to expect, form people or form the place & I don't know where I fit anymore, if anywhere...
Well, not sure if I'll get a chance to post again before I fly out... I'm sitting here & are feeling like this is the end of something. I feel the same as I did when I walked through the departure gates at Sydney airport last year, when I was walking into the unknown. Except this time I know I can handle it. I still remember trying to hold it together as I walked through customs, as I waited in line I sent a txt to Eve. Her response to that txt has traveled the world with me. "And you're completely free for the first time in years. Enjoy it because you deserve it". Thanks for everything hun!
Earls Court, London, England - 4th January 2005, 1pm
1 Comments:
At 5 January 2005 at 08:16,
Anonymous said…
Your Mum is looking different 'cause she is looking older - I've aged a lot in the last few months! Love Mum
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