Busy, busy, busy...
I had a really good weekend, just sitting here though I'm finding it hard to remember what I've done since I last posted. I think I've written in my journal but can't be bothered typing it up....
I had a freaky dream last night or I should say early this morning. It was about my ex & in my dream I was at Claudias kitchen tea & then 2 of my ex's cousins turned up & then his parents. I went over & hugged my ex in-laws hello then my ex & his girly turned up. I didn't see the girly but I ended up sitting down in a room with my just my ex & me. I was still really angry at him & told him so & the reasons why, then the mood of the conversation (or me going off) changed to me telling him why I was so happy now & the lessons that I've learnt blah, blah, blah. Then his girly came into the room & I kissed & hugged her hello (I've met her 3 or 4 times in the past), she wanted him to go but he's like we're not finished yet. That was the end of the dream cause my mum came in & woke me up...
I haven't dreamed about my ex in at least 6 months & the last one was that he was dead (that sounds so bad!). I haven't really thought that much about him in quite a while either.
Yesterday was Claudias Kitchen Tea. I'm really looking forward to the wedding, I can't wait! The kitchen tea was heaps of fun & I was in my element, being my normal bossy self, hosting it with Claudias sister. Everyone had a good time & it went off with out a hitch :o) It got me thinking quite a bit about my wedding & my kitchen tea etc & just talking to people my history came up a bit in conversation. Claudia was showing her prewedding photos to some of the guests & the photographer was my wedding photographer & he's now married to one of my best friends. So it was kinda like yeah I've been married & then people are kinda curious & I look really young I spose... One of the girls was like I'd put you at 23. I'm like ummm no, 27. Oh & just off on a tangent - I got the second rabies shot to day & mum came into the city with me. I walked into the Travel Centre with Mum & I said to the receptionist that I had a 11.30 appt. She, get this, looked at mum & told us to take a seat. Ummm, HELLO, LOOK AT ME!!! I'm not 10 years old! Every time I go anywhere with mum I get treated like I'm a bloody teenager. It really, really, really, really, really (I'm sure you get the idea) pisses me off! Yes, yes, I know, when I'm older I'll appreciate it, but hell, it doesn't make it much fun right now.
I'm tired at the moment. I've spent the last 5 hours traipsing round the city with mum. It reminds me again why I usually go shopping by myself... As much as I love her, she drives me crazy! It doesn't help when I'm tired & snappy either...
For the first time I wore my hiking boots. I brought them 3 weeks ago so I could walk them in but I just haven't had a chance. The right ones given me a bit of a blister but it's not to bad.
It's interesting, the last few days I've gone through so many different emotions... Just adjusting to living with other people is strange. Last night I didn't get back till 9.30ish & mum was like I didn't know if you wanted dinner or not & I was like sorry forgot to txt you to let you know what I was doing. I spose it's just polite to let people know what you're doing but, honestly, I don't really plan out my day to day life that much. In the morning when mum says to me, so what are you doing today, will you be home for dinner? It stresses me out. I haven't even thought about lunch let alone dinner! I miss having my own space as well. Like I don't have to be around my family all the time but even when I'm chilling out in the lounge it's not MY space. It's strange. Then thinking about my ex again... Thinking more about my trip. Part of me really likes Eve's decision of no more trip ;o) What's that saying though - feel the fear & do it anyway!
Oh, haven't heard form any of the boys... Think I installed in them to well that I'm pretty busy, cause I thought I couldn't be bothered with them... Now I've kinda changed my mind, well with Mr 30 anyway.
I had a freaky dream last night or I should say early this morning. It was about my ex & in my dream I was at Claudias kitchen tea & then 2 of my ex's cousins turned up & then his parents. I went over & hugged my ex in-laws hello then my ex & his girly turned up. I didn't see the girly but I ended up sitting down in a room with my just my ex & me. I was still really angry at him & told him so & the reasons why, then the mood of the conversation (or me going off) changed to me telling him why I was so happy now & the lessons that I've learnt blah, blah, blah. Then his girly came into the room & I kissed & hugged her hello (I've met her 3 or 4 times in the past), she wanted him to go but he's like we're not finished yet. That was the end of the dream cause my mum came in & woke me up...
I haven't dreamed about my ex in at least 6 months & the last one was that he was dead (that sounds so bad!). I haven't really thought that much about him in quite a while either.
Yesterday was Claudias Kitchen Tea. I'm really looking forward to the wedding, I can't wait! The kitchen tea was heaps of fun & I was in my element, being my normal bossy self, hosting it with Claudias sister. Everyone had a good time & it went off with out a hitch :o) It got me thinking quite a bit about my wedding & my kitchen tea etc & just talking to people my history came up a bit in conversation. Claudia was showing her prewedding photos to some of the guests & the photographer was my wedding photographer & he's now married to one of my best friends. So it was kinda like yeah I've been married & then people are kinda curious & I look really young I spose... One of the girls was like I'd put you at 23. I'm like ummm no, 27. Oh & just off on a tangent - I got the second rabies shot to day & mum came into the city with me. I walked into the Travel Centre with Mum & I said to the receptionist that I had a 11.30 appt. She, get this, looked at mum & told us to take a seat. Ummm, HELLO, LOOK AT ME!!! I'm not 10 years old! Every time I go anywhere with mum I get treated like I'm a bloody teenager. It really, really, really, really, really (I'm sure you get the idea) pisses me off! Yes, yes, I know, when I'm older I'll appreciate it, but hell, it doesn't make it much fun right now.
I'm tired at the moment. I've spent the last 5 hours traipsing round the city with mum. It reminds me again why I usually go shopping by myself... As much as I love her, she drives me crazy! It doesn't help when I'm tired & snappy either...
For the first time I wore my hiking boots. I brought them 3 weeks ago so I could walk them in but I just haven't had a chance. The right ones given me a bit of a blister but it's not to bad.
It's interesting, the last few days I've gone through so many different emotions... Just adjusting to living with other people is strange. Last night I didn't get back till 9.30ish & mum was like I didn't know if you wanted dinner or not & I was like sorry forgot to txt you to let you know what I was doing. I spose it's just polite to let people know what you're doing but, honestly, I don't really plan out my day to day life that much. In the morning when mum says to me, so what are you doing today, will you be home for dinner? It stresses me out. I haven't even thought about lunch let alone dinner! I miss having my own space as well. Like I don't have to be around my family all the time but even when I'm chilling out in the lounge it's not MY space. It's strange. Then thinking about my ex again... Thinking more about my trip. Part of me really likes Eve's decision of no more trip ;o) What's that saying though - feel the fear & do it anyway!
Oh, haven't heard form any of the boys... Think I installed in them to well that I'm pretty busy, cause I thought I couldn't be bothered with them... Now I've kinda changed my mind, well with Mr 30 anyway.
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