Got to be crazy...
The girl I work with. Don't know why but we just don't click. It's strange, I usually get on with most people. But her... I just can't work it out, I know she's got a problem with me but I don't know why. Anyway, she worked both Tuesday & Thursday nights last week which we're supposed to have off. I was going to work Thursday night but was sick so didn't. Anyway, they arranged for her to have tonight off & as we were leaving Saturday night the boss told her to take Monday lunch off as well - my response would be "cool, 2 days off in a row - Amazing". I turn up for work today & guess who's there...
It was so nice at work tonight. One of the casuals was in & it was so relaxed & stress free. Wasn't busy at all so it was nice to have someone to talk to & joke around with. Even little things like sharing the orders, working as a team, one of us would serve the drinks the other would work the till no problem. I usually just stay out of the way of my other co worker when it's not busy. I feel like there's some sort of competition hanging in the air with her & honestly, I can't be bothered to compete. She's won I don't care. It's a shame cause she is actually really nice.
Haven't emailed Joel yet. Not sure what to say. Sure I'll figure it out.
Haven't had any text's for a few days & got one form Eve tonight. Thanks hun, love hearing from you! Have I mentioned that I love the fact that some of my friends have online diary's. Even though I'm a million miles away I still feel like I'm in touch with their everyday lives. It help keeps me sane :D
Last night I would have loved to stay home & curl up on the sofa & watch DVD's but it was just not meant to be. The bosses wife (now to be know as TBW) needs to get out & start having a life of her own. While we get on she's still the boss & I'm still the employee so it's a bit hard to blur the lines. She's quite a hard person to get to know & keeps on a brave face most of the time. In order for her to go out & have fun a buffer is required so that her husband realizes that she's out with a group of friends & not running off to have a affair, which is ridiculous cause she's not. So I am the buffer... I don't really mind. She's slowly starting to reclaim her life, it's just a shame it's so hard for her. Last night we were out for a total of 3 hours. When she checked her phone just before we left she had 6 missed calls & had to answer to "you've got a husband & 3 children (15, 15 & 17!) at home to worry about". The things people say & do... I could write for ever on this but I don't have the energy.
I'm actually quite surprised. I thought all of this would be pressing my buttons but it hasn't been. I think it's safe to say that I'm well & truly over my marriage. I've forgiven him & I've forgiven myself. I think there is still a bit of sadness there & I hope it always is. Marriage isn't something to be entered into lightly & BTW it's not normal to have doubts!
In saying all of that though I am feeling quite drained at the moment but that could just be because I've been sick & are still getting over it.
need sleep. Will post some more photos on my trip page tomorrow.
I'm in bed, England, Tuesday 26th October 2004, 1.12am
It was so nice at work tonight. One of the casuals was in & it was so relaxed & stress free. Wasn't busy at all so it was nice to have someone to talk to & joke around with. Even little things like sharing the orders, working as a team, one of us would serve the drinks the other would work the till no problem. I usually just stay out of the way of my other co worker when it's not busy. I feel like there's some sort of competition hanging in the air with her & honestly, I can't be bothered to compete. She's won I don't care. It's a shame cause she is actually really nice.
Haven't emailed Joel yet. Not sure what to say. Sure I'll figure it out.
Haven't had any text's for a few days & got one form Eve tonight. Thanks hun, love hearing from you! Have I mentioned that I love the fact that some of my friends have online diary's. Even though I'm a million miles away I still feel like I'm in touch with their everyday lives. It help keeps me sane :D
Last night I would have loved to stay home & curl up on the sofa & watch DVD's but it was just not meant to be. The bosses wife (now to be know as TBW) needs to get out & start having a life of her own. While we get on she's still the boss & I'm still the employee so it's a bit hard to blur the lines. She's quite a hard person to get to know & keeps on a brave face most of the time. In order for her to go out & have fun a buffer is required so that her husband realizes that she's out with a group of friends & not running off to have a affair, which is ridiculous cause she's not. So I am the buffer... I don't really mind. She's slowly starting to reclaim her life, it's just a shame it's so hard for her. Last night we were out for a total of 3 hours. When she checked her phone just before we left she had 6 missed calls & had to answer to "you've got a husband & 3 children (15, 15 & 17!) at home to worry about". The things people say & do... I could write for ever on this but I don't have the energy.
I'm actually quite surprised. I thought all of this would be pressing my buttons but it hasn't been. I think it's safe to say that I'm well & truly over my marriage. I've forgiven him & I've forgiven myself. I think there is still a bit of sadness there & I hope it always is. Marriage isn't something to be entered into lightly & BTW it's not normal to have doubts!
In saying all of that though I am feeling quite drained at the moment but that could just be because I've been sick & are still getting over it.
need sleep. Will post some more photos on my trip page tomorrow.
I'm in bed, England, Tuesday 26th October 2004, 1.12am
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